One Year Later.......

" It took Cancer to bring me to a point of maturity, that I would have never known otherwise. In many ways, Christ used Cancer to save me from destruction."

Unspeakable Speaks:

A year ago today I was diagnosed with stage 3C Breast Cancer, having only been 30 years old for two months. Today, I am a new person altogether. My perspective and the definition of life and what it means has completely changed. Having experienced first hand what it means to live an unfulfilled life; where my personal decisions kept me in a state of bondage. I realized as a result of having Cancer that if I allowed God to renew my mind and change my heart, that which was meant to kill me, would actually give me life. This was not an easy process, and the truth of the matter is, if I told you that I didn't go through periods of doubt, frustration, and fear; I'd be lying. But what I can tell you is that, I learned how to acknowledge those feelings and address them appropriately when they arose. When you are faced with insurmountable odds, it causes you to evaluate how you feel about God and His abilities. Identifying where you are in your faith and reflecting on your experiences in an effort to initiate growth and maturity is the goal.

Today I am reflecting on how the last year of my life has unfolded and it warms my heart to know that out of the darkness I have emerged victorious...Cancer free. Healed. It is today that I realize that I am getting that much closer to being a reflection of the image of Christ in the earth realm. (Genesis 1:27) I chose the picture above because it made me realize that our perceptions often shape our perspective. We all have our own crosses to bear. If the sun went down, the cross would still be there. It is up to us to decide whether or not to focus on the darkness and the lack of a visible cross or to remain confident in the fact that despite the darkness, the cross will be there when the sun emerges again. The sun will emerge from behind the clouds of darkness. You can be healed, you can be delivered, you can win. Your situation may seem bleek now, but know that "The Cross" is still there, despite your situation and the darkness is simply there to illuminate the light. Be the light of the world, so that through you, the world might have hope. Reflect the cross even in your "darkest"situations, so that when the sun shines again, you will emerge refreshed and renewed.




Refine your perspective! Study the scriptures below:

I Peter 5:10

James 1:12

John 16:33

Romans 5:3

2 Corinthians 4:16

The Important Thing.......

“It's not what's happening to you now or what has happened in your past that determines who you become. Rather, it's your decisions about what to focus on, what things mean to you, and what you're going to do about them that will determine your ultimate destiny.”

Anthony Robbins

Unspeakable speaks:

It has been a long time since I have written to you. There was so many things taking place in my life at one time, that I chose to set aside writing for a while in order to focus on what I thought was important at the moment. In doing so, I found myself severely behind in writing to you and for that I am sorry. Recently, I found this quote and it reminded me of why I created this blog in the first place. This blog is to be used as inspiration and a source of information for those undergoing the "Cancer experience."


The quote above puts this blog and everything in life into perspective. In so many words, it asks the question, What are you going to focus on, what is important to you, and what are you going to do about them in order to make your life better? As the end of 2009 rapidly approaches, I started placing pressure on myself to get things on my task list done. The thought of having anything left undone was unnerving, so much so that I began to get tired and depressed because of it. This weekend, I decided to take a step back and that's when I found this quote. When I look at 2009 as a whole, I accomplished things that most people never experience. I won a full- fledged battle with Cancer, I rekindled relationships with people that I haven't spoken to in years, I through the power of God have helped people get free of strongholds and curses that would have otherwise overtaken them, I have completed another semester in school, I have watched my prayers come alive. I have accomplished all things this year, because it was Christ Jesus who strengthened me.

I realized just today that to not acknowledge these wonderful accomplishments is to minimize the blessings that God gave me during 2009. What was meant to be accomplished was done. It is now time for me to take what I have learned and focus on the future ahead of me. It is important to have a plan for your life, but it is also equally important for you to live that plan. Don't get so bogged down with deliverables that you miss the process for completing them. It is in the process that you value and appreciate the growth that you have experienced. Missing out on this step, can stifle your creativity, imagination, and passion. It's a delicate balance. Focus on the important thing remembering that some of the components may need to be developed, but it's the will to move forward anyway that drives a person into their purpose.

"Joyefull"........

Unspeakable speaks......

I turned 31 on November 12, 2009. I remember as a child hearing my elder family members say things like, "The Lord saw fit to it that I would see another year," and I never thought much of that statement until now. One year ago, I was on my couch praying that something extraordinary would take place that year, and that whatever it was, God would be glorified. Well look at God, He did it, He truly made my 30th year one for the books! This birthday, I chose to spend my birthday with my Aunt in New Jersey and drink in the wisdom that she alludes. It was cold and overcast outside, quiet and still in the house and peaceful inside me. Any other time, I would have been annoyed by the atmosphere but today I didn't mind it, after all it was just another example of how "not to let the atmosphere around you shape what is inside of you."

I am truly thankful for the time that I have been given and I do not take lightly my obligation to make the most of it. This upcoming year I will make no apologies for "living on purpose" and "moving forward to my highest and best use." I spent a small portion of the day crying...not out of sorrow but joy. I am joyful because of the blessing of healing that God has given to me; joyful for the lessons learned this year, joyful for the faithfulness of my God, and last but not least, joyful for being able to share all of this with you. In 30 years, I have been through more experiences than some people get in a lifetime and it hasn't been easy, but the important thing is that I am still here.....standing. All I can say is thank you God....I am truly "joye full"!!!

Radioactive the finale.....

Unspeakable speaks........

Well everyone, I finally finished my 6 weeks of radiation therapy and I can honestly tell you it was not the walk in the park that it was portrayed to be. Leading into my 5th week, my skin began to rapidly darken and burn off. Imagine having 2nd and 3rd degree burns on your chest, underarm, and back. Yeah exactly, it made sleeping extremely uncomfortable and any form of movement was painful. I suffered from extreme fatigue and there were times that I had to force myself to get up out of bed and run errands to keep from sleeping all day. This was an experience that God willing, I hope not to ever repeat as long as I live.

There are times in our lives where we are placed into situations that God uses to refine and "burn off" the excess baggage and drama that we carry within. I choose to view this experience as one of those times. The reality of the matter is that God is in control of it all and any point in time He can select me to undergo this process all over again (heaven forbid)! But the important thing that I have to keep in perspective, are the values of the lessons learned and the blessings that have unfolded right before my eyes. Would I do it all again you may ask....... as crazy as this may sound. Yes...it was all worth the pain and suffering in order for me to be free of "my private cancers."

Sometimes it takes "the fire of God" applied to our lives in order to be delivered out of situations that we are unable to free ourselves from. I must say something that I pray each of you take extremely seriously.....the attraction to the "cancers" in your past don't just go away. It takes an extreme dependence on the grace of God and discipline to identify and take authority over the "triggers" that lead to your cancer. This experience does not have to be repeated, but it is up to you to make better decisions with your life. Holding grudges, stress, worry, the mismanagement of your talents, fear, and doubt are all things that foster death spiritually and physically. Chose today to make better decisions that promote healing, love, joy, and peace and witness the death of your own radioactive mentality. It is finished.

Healing Scriptures to pray daily.......

If you are waiting for the full manifestation of healing to come into your body or mind, put God in remembrance of His Word, by speaking His Word. Jesus defeated Satan, by "It is written." You can defeat him this way, too.

Here are some healing promises which are legally yours by inheritance as a heir of God and a joint-heir of Jesus Christ. Meditate upon these promises daily. Speak them aloud, putting God in remembrance of His promises....

By Jesus' stripes I am healed. (I Peter 2:24)

It is God's will that I prosper and be in health, just as my soul prospers.
(3 John 2)

The Lord is my healer. (Ex. 15:26)

Jesus cane that I may have life and it more abundantly. (John 10:10)

As I serve the Lord, sickness if taken from my midst. (Ex. 23:25)

He forgives all my sins and heals all of my diseases. (Ps. 103:3)

God sent His Word and healed me. (Ps. 107:20)

I pay attention to God's word, for it is life to my body and health to my flesh. (Prov.4:20-22)

This fulfilled the word of the Lord through Isaiah who said, "He took our sickness and removed our diseases." (Matt. 8:17)

As I submit to God and resist the devil, he must flee from me. Sickness and disease must flee from me. (James 4:7)

Jesus is able and willing to heal me. (Matt. 8:1-2)

Jesus can heal through my believing, receiving, and speaking His Word or through the touch of another believer who is empowered by the Holy Ghost. (Mark 16:18)

Jesus paid for all sin and sickness at Calvary. (Matt. 8:17)

Because the Lord is my refuge and habitation, no evil nor plague shall come nigh my dwelling. (Ps. 91:9-11)

I am redeemed with the blood of Jesus. (I Peter 1:19)

I am justified by faith, not by works of the law. (Gal. 3:13)

Jesus redeemed me from the curse of the law. (Gal. 3:13)

The blessings of Abraham have come upon me. (Deut. 28:1-14)

Jesus legally redeemed me from the bondage of sickness and disease and every other work of the enemy. (Luke 13:10-17)

Jesus bore my griefs (sickness) and carried my sorrows (pains). (Isa. 53:5)

Jesus was wounded, bruised, and beaten for my sins, sicknesses, and diseases. (Is. 53:5)

I discern the Lord's body and receive all that He has provided for me, including healing for my physical body. (I Corn. 11:23-30)

To touch Jesus is to be made whole. I touch Jesus today through prayer and faith. (Mark 5:25-34)

The resurrection power of Jesus Christ flows from my tongue as I speak words of life. (Prov. 18:21)

I have been given authority in the name of Jesus to speak to the mountains that I face. As I command the mountains of sickness, despair, hopelessness, and lack to be removed in Jesus name, they must go and be replaced with the fullness of God's blessings. (Mark 11:22,23)

Because I meditate on the Word of God day and night, God's prosperity and success are overtaking me in all realms of life. (Josh. 1:8)

Because my faith is growing, nothing is impossible unto me. (Matt. 17-20)

Jesus is moved with compassion on my behalf, He wants me healed because of His great love for me. (Matt. 14:14)

Satan cannot dominate or oppress my life, because Jesus came to set me free. (I John 3:8, Acts 10:38)

Just as God's grace was sufficient to cause Paul to overcome all of Satan's buffeting, God's grave causes me to overcome Satan's buffetings. Christ Jesus causes me to triumph in every area of my life. (2 Corin 12:9,10)

I will rise above anything and everything the devil throws at me. Nothing can keep me down, for I am more than more conqueror in Christ Jesus. (Rom. 8:35-39)

Today I will rise to new life from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept me. (Is. 60:1)

Jesus is the author of abundant life, while it is Satan who steals, kills, and destroys. (John 10:10)

Long life is mine because I obey and honor my parents in the Lord. (Ephs. 6:1-3; Ex. 20:12)

Fear of the Lord, lengthens one's life, but the years of the wicked are cut short. (Prov. 10:27)

A Prayer for Healing of Cancer....Courtesy of My Perfect Stranger.

There are many different kinds of cancer that attack the human body, but cancers in general share certain characteristics. Cancer basically represents a failure of the body's immune system with a weakening in T cells, B cells, and natural killer cells that are designed to recognize and attack abnormally dividing cancer cells.

Cancer tends to create its own system of blood vessels (angiogenesis) to supply the increased amount of blood needed to sustain tumor growth. By understanding some of these processes contributing to cancer growth, we can pray specifically and effectually. On the natural side, God has provided substances from His creation hat both strengthen our immune systems (glutathione, selenium, vitamin E, coenzyme Q10, zinc, B vitamins) and actually kill abnormal cancer calls (catechins from green tea extract, sulforophane from brocolli, lycopene). We should seek God in prayer as to what He would have us to do in the natural as we also seek Him in faith to do the supernatural.

Father,
I thank you that through the name of Jesus, you have given me authority over the works of darkness that would attack my body. I therefore speak to cancer and command it to cease in my body. I speak specifically to my immune system and command the T cells and other components to be activated and to rise up against abnormal cancer cells. I command the cancer's blood supply to wither and die and for the abnormal cancer cell divisions to stop. I ask you, Father, to reveal to me those natural substances you would have me to use to strengthen my immune system. I ask you to also reveal those herbal substances and extracts you would have me to use to kill and overcome cancer cells in my body. As I do what I can and know to do in the natural, I look to you, Father, to touch my body supernaturally, and I thank you that by the stripes of your son, Jesus, I was healed and my manifestation of healing is on the way. In Jesus' name, I thank you for my healing.

Amen. It is done.

A Perfect Stranger......

" I do desire, we be better strangers."

William Shakespeare


Unspeakable Speaks....

We walk by people daily never saying a word to them. Often times I find myself wondering what a persons' life must be like: imagining how their voice must sound, what they like, who they love, and what drives them. All of my questions could be answered with a simple gesture..by saying hello. I don't know about you, but the thought of having someone reject my gesture of hello by either ignoring me or choosing not to respond has kept me in many cases from venturing out to have my questions of character answered. When I go to radiation, I keep to myself only communicating with my "machine team" and radiation oncologist. I have made it a habit to avoid my urges to have my character questions answered not because the other patients don't want to be bothered, but because my own insecurities surface when I enter the building. The only conversations that I have held with other patients have been as a result of them engaging in conversation with me. I can't help but to think that they had the same if not more "questions of character" for me and the insecurities that I let stop me, did not hinder them from connecting with another human being.


Last Thursday as I sat in the waiting room, a young lady walked in to meet the other members of her family. As she approached, I noticed that she gave me a second glance after the initial one. Her family eager to leave, she walked over to me and said hello. I looked at her and said hello back and as I did, she handed me several pieces of paper and told me to have a good day. I accepted the papers and thanked her. When I looked down, I realized that what she had given me was "life". That perfect stranger had given me a handout that consisted of a prayer and scriptures for healing. What an amazing gift to give to someone sitting in a hospital waiting room. This perfect stranger had no idea why I was there, but she put aside all of her insecurities and fear of rejection to bless me. That experience provided me with an unimaginable lesson in humility.

I wanted to share that experience with all of you because what that perfect stranger did was a true act of Christian love . How many of us would have taken that step to bless someone else without being asked? There are people in the church that won't even speak to others, much less hand them a tool necessary for their healing. It is imperative that we mature in our Christian experience, by demonstrating acts of kindness towards others:believers and unbelievers alike. You never know whose soul may be saved as a result of your actions.

To My Perfect Stranger:
It is my prayer that God bless you and your family triple that of what you have blessed me with. I pray that every scripture that you handed me comes alive in your life and that healing manifest in your life and the lives of those around you. I pray that you prosper even as your soul prospers. I believe with you that God can change things and people and because of you, I am forever changed for the better. Be Blessed.